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Tuesday, August 02, 2005

Hiz avid readers!! Haven't been blogging much recently and guess I am reaching the plateau of my life... come to think of it, i can't really picture of i have been spending time these few days. Stopped my work cause i dun feel like working that shitty job anymore. Yah the pay was good but the job sucks, the in-charge sucks and worst of all, the pple around are so fake!!
Spend the past few days watching BECK....
"It's good, superb!! Go back watch and you will like it!" says Thor

I watched the 1st episode... there is nothing special about BECK. There was no special powers, no gods, no deities, no ghosts, no heavenly gers with big booties and no FANTASY. But i just watched on and on... one episode after the other w/o stopping.
The anime is about a boy, a middle school boy Yukio. He was a typical loser in every aspect, small, ordinary, had few friends and had no life. But he meet this guy who changed his life, this guy who exposed him to rock music. Yukio found out later that his crash also like rock music and at 1st he only wanted to have more topics to talk about so he learnt the guitar and listened to different genre. But slowly, he began to like jamming... he practised day n night, like a possesed child. But no matter how hard he try, he was just not good enough. No one believe in him.... not even himself. The choices that he had to made in his life... to give up music and continue to concentrate on his studies. And how he found hope from a ger... a ger who discoverd his talent and was v supportive. The anime not only talks about Yukio's fighting spirit, his high school life but also reveals the harsh reality of the music world.

"Its nice... go watch..."

I guess maybe thats what got me hooked up to the anime. Some one so ordinary, some one that is like you and me can also shine out from the crowd. Believe in your talent, believe in the effort, the sweat and tears that you have put in. I was moved by the spirit that Yukio had, something that was lacking in me......

"Wah.. u call this cock song nice ar?? I find this song fucked up lor!! haha" says Ed
"Eh? Can't you feel the emotion coming out from the song??"
"Emotions my foot lar. Haha I feel like sleeping when I hear this song." says Ed
"lolz. I guess opinions differ from people to people." says Ed

*In the end he sent me Taufik Batisah's "I dream".......* -.-"
Hope your will like this song....
p.s turn on the music

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'TAKE;

"Because of you"

I will not make
The same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break
The way you did, you fell so hard
I have learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray
too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me,
but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid

I lose my way
And it’s not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that’s weakness in your eyes
I’m forced to fake
A smile, a laugh, every day of my life
My heart can’t possibly break
When it wasn’t even whole
to start with
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night
in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
Because of you
Because of you I am afraid

Because of you I never stray
too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play
on the safe side so I don’t get hurt

Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don’t know how to
let anyone else in
Because of you
I’m ashamed of my life
because it’s empty
Because of you I am afraid

Because of you

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-MY HISTORY-

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