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Friday, October 07, 2005

-Let my thoughts flow i shall-

Off the lights in my room,
Lit up the candle on my desk,

Too much emotions have entered my mind recently, clouding my thinking. Things never seem to fall in place when i have this kinda feelings. Run away i would always tell them but they never did. Hiding them was the only remedy for me. I think its time i stop being so rational and start becoming more affective? Perhaps i wun be so effective but i would be happier i guess. Letting my heart take the lead for once instead of my mind. Strangely those things that keep bugging me are not my feelings but other people's thoughts. Many things have happened recently. Many people have found a new lease of life while others have lost their orientation for now. Felt happy yet sad for W cause he is going thru a rough patch now. Reminisce of my past while looking at him. Nmind its all the past...

To a friend: Dun keep thinging about how things are now but take a probe into y things have become so...

Starting to feel that my life revolves around those around me. This bring me back to the basic question. Then where really is my life, where can i find it? Or who can i be able to find it in. It seems like the more i probe into this sort of questions, the more i dun understand myself. But i did realize that my life is getting rather boring at this stage. Prob because i am at the stage of upgrading myself... my thirst for knowledge is incredibly growing! SHiok!!

CANTtakeIT;7:18 AM

'andI;

Name CCK
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'TAKE;

"Because of you"

I will not make
The same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break
The way you did, you fell so hard
I have learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray
too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me,
but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid

I lose my way
And it’s not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that’s weakness in your eyes
I’m forced to fake
A smile, a laugh, every day of my life
My heart can’t possibly break
When it wasn’t even whole
to start with
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night
in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
Because of you
Because of you I am afraid

Because of you I never stray
too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play
on the safe side so I don’t get hurt

Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don’t know how to
let anyone else in
Because of you
I’m ashamed of my life
because it’s empty
Because of you I am afraid

Because of you

'IT;

-MY HISTORY-

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