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Sunday, January 29, 2006

HAPPY CNY TO ALL THOSE READING!!

CNy never had any impact to me all these years. In fact, it never made me happy. Was packing and clearing up my cabinet n room when i found the "sheeps". It was the only thing that i have left with me since then. N now then i realize why i still treasure n keep it even though i shld have thrown them away long long time ago...

How often have anyone of your felt "wanted" n treasured by some one?? Now I finally realize how fortunate it is to have some one thinking about you. When they are happily shopping looking for a gift for you, when they are sad n needs a ear or when they are sitting in the boring LT trying to sneak sms to you. The "sheeps" did make me feel "wanted" during then but now it reminisce me of betray, lies and hypocrisy. But still, I still cannot bring myself to throw out this trash. Haiz... think i will be seeing them again next year spring cleaning.

This year CNY got worst. Had a bad quarrel with dad over some very trivial things that din make sense to me. Think i made him very upset but i found no fault in myself in arguing. He was being unreasonable n i really mean it.

TO @ on to my misery, i injured myself. My heels are hurting like hell!! I have no idea how they end up swollen cause i din fall down n neither did i knock into ANYTHING!! i just noe that i have much difficulty limping around the house. Initially it was only the right heel so i keep leaning all my weight on my left. NOw, both are swollen....

Think this year will be a really really bad year for me. Just hope that everything turns well... plz.. i cannot take FALLS anymore le....

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'TAKE;

"Because of you"

I will not make
The same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break
The way you did, you fell so hard
I have learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray
too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me,
but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid

I lose my way
And it’s not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that’s weakness in your eyes
I’m forced to fake
A smile, a laugh, every day of my life
My heart can’t possibly break
When it wasn’t even whole
to start with
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night
in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
Because of you
Because of you I am afraid

Because of you I never stray
too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play
on the safe side so I don’t get hurt

Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don’t know how to
let anyone else in
Because of you
I’m ashamed of my life
because it’s empty
Because of you I am afraid

Because of you

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