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Monday, March 20, 2006
I think i am saddist.
I realize that i am not only a procrastinator. I enjoy the intense pressure and adrenalin rush of trying to get things done the day before dline. Even though i force myself to stay at home to do all the assignment, i still end up doing it last min. I think i get the kick out of forcing myself to the limit and letting anxiety and fear take over my brains. Dun this amount to some sort of self torturing?
Haha on the other hand, some one said something very meaningful. Seems like your trying to prove to that some one UP there. Seems like HE always have means and ways to make things very unexpected and you just keep trying ur best to resist.
Resistance is not futile, @ least it got me so far n triumphant is only meaningful when there is a fight.

Ok... enough of the shit... Its 0430 and i still dun have the mood to sleep. I am SO energetic now!! I guess its the "hang-over" from rushing the PPT for ME4105. Think i am really gonna miss my lect 2molo....
CANTtakeIT;4:18 AM

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"Because of you"

I will not make
The same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break
The way you did, you fell so hard
I have learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray
too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me,
but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid

I lose my way
And it’s not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that’s weakness in your eyes
I’m forced to fake
A smile, a laugh, every day of my life
My heart can’t possibly break
When it wasn’t even whole
to start with
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night
in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
Because of you
Because of you I am afraid

Because of you I never stray
too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play
on the safe side so I don’t get hurt

Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don’t know how to
let anyone else in
Because of you
I’m ashamed of my life
because it’s empty
Because of you I am afraid

Because of you



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'anyMORE;

-Don-

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-YingYi-

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-Luke-

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-Mel-



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