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Sunday, April 23, 2006

I was reading upon the paper and i chanced upon this article that I cannot stop thinking about it.

The story touched my heart and stirrred so much emotion withnin me that i wanna share this with all my friends who are reading this blog entry.

here goes an excerpt from the newspaper article:
"Imagine having to cope with cancer at 18? this is one lesson no one will ever learn in school but it turned out to be the lesson of my life....
I have always been a fighter. Whenever I have a problem , i do not whine about it nor do i cry. Instead i think of the best way to tackle the problem and put the solution into action.
I am a firm believer of the notion of that as long as i try hard enough, nothing is impossible.
ALl of a sudden, i felt anger in me. Why should i bow to cancer? Why should i be sad? At that moment, all i wanted was to fight. I wanted to punch the lump in my neck with my own bare fist. If cancer wants a fight, i will take it on any time, any day...
It all ended in April 2005. I officially turned from cancer patient to cancer survivor. Victory never tasted so sweet.
From now on, i know i will only get better and better. I was finally going to get my life back.... I can live to see my futur, i can live to realise my dreams, i can smell the flowers, i can feel the cool wind on my face, i can see thew faces of my loved ones. The fight was worthwhile. Every single moement of it. "

this excerpt was written b4 her condition became worst.

After reading the story, i was so dejected and sympathetic that i visited her blog and started blogging even though i have a paper 2molo.(which i have not finish studying) Her story really touched me. How life is so fragile and unpredictable and to become a victim of illness.
Its the saddest thing on earth to know that you will be dying, to know that an the gate has been lowered upon your life, to count the days approaching, to see yourself fading away, yet remain so helpless.....
Yet i admire her courage, her bravery and her determination. I still rem telling my mum once while watching NKF.

"I would commit suicide by jumping off the building if i ever kena this kinda illness.."

Yet now i am reading the story of this ger who is battling the crutches of deadth. Yet she is so strong and determined to fight and win this battle.
How my heart sank when i read that she cannot even keep her head upright for long without a head rest due to the cancer cells attacking her spinal cord.

Ger, your one person who have really gained my respect in every aspect after i read about your story. Stay strong and continue fighting. Though i am not a catholic, i can feel the strong faith that you have. Helpless i am but i shall pray for you also....

*if anyone of your are interested to read more about her story, here is the link....*
Joan Chan's site

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"Because of you"

I will not make
The same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break
The way you did, you fell so hard
I have learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray
too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me,
but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid

I lose my way
And it’s not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that’s weakness in your eyes
I’m forced to fake
A smile, a laugh, every day of my life
My heart can’t possibly break
When it wasn’t even whole
to start with
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night
in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
Because of you
Because of you I am afraid

Because of you I never stray
too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play
on the safe side so I don’t get hurt

Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don’t know how to
let anyone else in
Because of you
I’m ashamed of my life
because it’s empty
Because of you I am afraid

Because of you

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